i screwed up on everything! i mean everything! i used to thing I had it all, I had my family, my friends, everything was good. never have i felt this low in my life. Everything and everyone around me seem to be falling apart. im just a downer right now, i dont want to be around anyone yet i want to be around them. my body is fcked up, my family is fcked up and im graduating so im not going to see my friends anymore too which is cool cause thats amazing. im just like a walking dead, living for nothing. if i can just rewind it to a few months ago i would be soo happy.

i cant pretend that im happy anymore. i dont find anything good anymore. i feel no pleasure with anything and i HATE IT! no one seems to understand me, and no one seems to want to listen to me. i dont want to give them the burden of listening to me. i dont even trust anyone anymore